Saturday, May 16, 2015

What card are you dealt with?


Yesterday was another usual day at office. Had a couple of drinks post office with a few friends, took my usual bus route 17 at Nicolett and remembered that I had to get some stuff from Kowalkski's(grocery store) on the way back.So promptly got off at my stop and headed towards Kowalski's. I have to cross the Kowalski's parking lot to get into the store and I saw this car pulling in and inside it was a very pretty girl with a tiara of flowers on her head sitting in the non driver seat. She may have been in her 20's. I was immediately attracted to her,but she had a kind of sad face which kinda made me twinge a little. I stared at her a bit longer and I saw the driver,an older woman get out of the car but this girl made no immediate attempt to get out.Well there are lot of pretty girls in this world and here was one more and I moved on into the store. My work inside the store took me less than 10 mins, I came out then I saw this girl still sitting inside the car and she opened the door,I slowed down my pace to get one more appreciative look at this flowery tiara girl before she is totally erased from my short term memory. The girl seemed to be struggling to get out,then i saw a pair of crutches come out of the car first, I thought, oh! she may have broken a leg or something,poor thing! But then only one leg came out and she stood and closed the door and I saw that she had no other leg,it stopped near the thigh. The pang of emotions I felt at that moment of realization was like a jolt of shock. Somebody froze the frame and changed the entire perspective, from a lusty appreciative emotion, it turned to a whole myriad of other emotions - surprise,dismay,shock,melancholy. Her eyes met mine for a few seconds, she had that look of 'what is he thinking about me','is he pitying me?'. I gave her a quick sad smile,which she immediately understood and returned a 'I know' smile. I walked on,I kept thinking in my head - 'What card are you dealt with?'.

Sunday, May 03, 2015

Joy of pain


There is a different kind of joy to be felt in some kinds of pain. Like today I ran 16 miles and the last 2 miles were a struggle. I couldn't speak for 15 mins after stopping. I just went home and collapsed on my bed and did not move for 30 mins. When I made the first movement and felt the pain of muscles being sore,aaah,one cannot describe it,its a pain of accomplishment and at the same time a pain which gnaws onto your brain. Every step I took meant some part of my body was creaking and the pain felt was indescribable. Aaahhh, the joy of pain. They say pain is weakness leaving the body,it definitely a painful way to figure it out. :)